Sept 12 on 12th

 1. Our travel wall.  Almost done with decor
2, Current book, "Dad is Fat" funny and so relatable
3. In costco with the toys entertaining the girls
4. Maia LOVED this backpack and animal
5. Hallie's "Mommy school"
6. Played b-ball outside with the kids (It got COLD today!)
7. My chores today included tidying the play room
8. Getting Jackson home from school and getting a snack
9.  Taking the girls to the park for a play date
10.  Getting up late, set my schedule off
11. A Load of LAundry a day... keeps the crazies away?
12 Torchy Tacos.  Met some new friends/neighbors/members who live fairly close to me.  Happy to have friendly people around.

Honestly, this 12 on the 12th made me realize how empty and lonely I feel here in Texas.  It was a Friday, which is always more challenging because I am ready for the change of the weekend, but it can't come soon enough.  Today, we slept in until 7:30!!  Since school starts around 8, we were in a huge rush.  I felt so tired and sleepy even with sleeping in.  Jackson had hot lunch for the first time ever.  This started the whole day with a lack of motivation and I just felt TIRED.  Usually, I get up by 5 to run with people I met on Facebook or by 6 to workout or read scriptures.  This day just started wrong.  I definitely didn't want to do chores (and Friday is a 'light' cleaning day anyway) but I always do a load of laundry.   I tried to get up motivation to do school with Hallie,but since I didn't have anything specific planned in advance, I mostly spent the time looking for an activity to do and finding songs to teach when it is my turn for preschool next month. Hallie spent some time counting beads.  Like I said, I really had no motivation to do anything.  I had planned to meet a neighbor for the first time at Grapefest, but the rain kept us away.  She suggested meeting at a taco shop.  It was 15 mins always, so I thought it was a waste of a trip just for lunch.  I debated not even going, but I decided I was bored and needed to get out, hoping that raised my motivation for the day.  The tacos were pretty good.  I met a lady whose kids go to Jacksons school (Who is a member of the church).  So I was excited to meet some people who live near me who share my beliefs. Mariah stood up, and sat on the back of her high chair, immediately falling backwards.  I caught her leg as she went down inches before her head his the ground.  I felt lucky although it looked painful to be caught by the leg too.   Right after, my new neighbor/friend/member of the church was going to costco, so I thought I'd kill more time by getting samples.  I struck up a conversation with another mom who was letting her daughter play with the Christmas toys.  She found out within seconds that I was a Mormon and it turns out that she is friends with all the members that live just NORTH of me in the Colleyville stake, Keller 2nd ward.  I was so amazed that God helped me find a group of people who live around me through a non-member (who has a calling doing activity days!).     I was glad I went out, but then back at home felt the same non-motivation.  I read from my current book (Dad is fat) then got Jackson from school.  He has had no homework and so it has been nice after school to just relax.  Dave and I were planning on taking the kids bowling, but last minute the lanes were full.  I made dinner, but no one liked it so I ate alone and felt like a failure, even though I had tried to make a family meal.  We played basketball outside and talked to a neighbor for a minute.  I tried to plan a girls night, but apparently, last-minute deals don't work as well here, so no one came.  Dave and I watched a movie in the evening as he planned and prepared photos for our travel wall.

I wish this day fell a day earlier when I went running at 5 am, took the girls to the park, did school with Hallie, the kids painted and we visited a widow in our neighborhood as well as attending Jackson's curriculum night and watching BYU play while finishing Mariah's 1st year scrapbook.   Or maybe Saturday, when I ran 9.5 miles, grocery shopped for hours, cleaned house, prepped dinner, took Jackson to a birthday party, fed the missionaries and another family in the ward and finished the travel wall.  Much more entertaining and exciting and productive day, but none-the-less, such is my life.  Sometimes I am just boring and unmotivated.  Wish I could've gotten out of the funk.   There is so much I WANT to do and be, but sometimes I don't have motivation to do it, or feel paralyzed at what I should start with.